… needs no euphemism.
I have been following a cancer patient’s blog for the last few weeks, and it gets depressing.
Every post, every doctor visit, every recorded sensation, every day, and every minute delivers the same message – that his days are numbered. He has written his own obituary, picked his own grave, took a picture with his tombstone, planned out his funeral (on Google maps), and is hugging his daughters goodbye everyday.
Last easter, he was hoping to make it till thanksgiving. Last thanksgiving, he was hoping to make it till christmas. Last christmas, he was hoping to make it till easter.
I never found out if he did.
He usually updates his blog a few times a month, and he hasn’t updated since mid-march.
This is like… korean drama, for real. Except the purpose is not to engage the audience.
But come to think of it, at least he saw it coming. And other people, too.
When people die, we always think about things that we would have done differently, things that we would have said differently. Confess love, give free food, talk to them nicely, etc.
With a timed death, there won’t be any of that. Everything that should have been done could have been done. Everything that should have been said could have been said. There will be no regret.
Which would you prefer? Getting notified that you will be dead in some months, or just get hit by a car and die on a random beautiful afternoon with no warning, a lot of remorse from other people, and a lot of confessions that you would have gotten?
I don’t know.
I certainly don’t want to die now, but in 60-70 years, I may change my mind. Heck, I probably won’t make it anywhere NEAR that. I’ll be killed by a soldering iron WAY sooner.
Death seems so remote, but it happens all the time around us.
Be happy. Eat a squirrel.
In any case, don’t wait till I get cancer to tell me you love me =P just do it now so we will have time for some fun =D.
Also, don’t wait until I get cancer to tell me you hate me/you were the one who blackmailed me/ran off with my girlfriend. Just do it now so i can make sure you die before me=D!
I promise I’ll do the same, too*.
* void where prohibited by law.
Aug 03, 1970 – Apr 14, 2010
RIP Dave Sinkula